Card #1 represents heart of the matter.
You've drawn the Reversed King of Swords card. This means you're getting a reversed version of Ethical Leader energy, so it's manifesting as Overbearing and shows up looking like cruel, merciless, incompetent, illegal actions. This is what is causing you the most doubt or fear for moving forward. This is the strongest, most important feeling thing that frames your decision. Is it benefiting you?