Card #9 represents hopes & fears.
You've drawn the Reversed Temperance card. This means you're getting a reversed version of Balance energy, so it's manifesting as Imbalance and shows up looking like extremes, conflicts, lack of long-term vision. This card can be confusing because so often our hopes and fears are tightly enmeshed. It can be what you are afraid of, a secret desire, what you suspect is true, what you long for, or what you’re avoiding.