Card #1 represents the root of your insecurity.
You've drawn Knight of Cups in reversed orientation as the the root of your insecurity.
Since you've drawn the reversed version, you're getting a reversed version of Sensitive energy, so it's manifesting as Temperamental and shows up looking like indulging in daydreams, moody, overly emotional.
In what ways are these concepts generating a lot of noise in your head that's undermining you. Take a moment to think about how these kinds of thoughts are holding you back and keeping you from shining like the radiant person you are.